Shocked

It was a Tuesday night,I still remember when I had the biggest shock of my life.My mum was holding a letter in her hand and my dad was beside her.She showed me the letter and i reread the letter a few times.This is not real.I was torn apart.I felt like I could not breathe and everything was not clear except these few words Tawaran mengikuti Program Matrikulasi Satu Tahun di Kedah.So since my mind just shut down a.k.a I didn't know how to think straight,I posted it on Facebook as my status.But I didn't reveal that I got the offer.I was like "Why Kedah?So far far away."I couldnt' sleep properly.My poor mind was spinning.It felt terrible.

I went to school the next day half heartedly.I am going to leave this school and no soul here knows about it.This is my last day.Do something.Tell everyone about it!

Noooooooooo.Mind,stop messing with me.I just can't!!

Then,as we were lining up for assembly,Mr Malai,the teacher in charge for the Form 6 students,came up to me.I was shocked.

"So,did you get any offer anywhere?"
"Yup,matriculation in Kedah".
"Why are you not in Kedah.You're suppose to register today".

The thing is,my mum was going to call the people in charge to see whether I could get a nearer place.Anyway,it was the girl guides meeting.And I needed to tell someone about it.So I told Amrit.And then she told me that there is alot of catching up to do in matriculation and it's like a pressure cooker in there(her friend who got into matriculation told her this).And then,i wanted to call my mum.So i got permission to call my mum.But the thing is,she has not called anyone yet about the transfer.

And then I made up my mind.I was going to Kedah.So I spoke to Amrit about it and then Joyce and Jia Wearn overheard the conversation,so they were all shocked.Then,Joyce was like "It's not easy to go into matriculation.You have to be mentally and spiritually ready".And I was like,I'm not ready to go.My heart is in this school.I live here.I belong here.

You are going to leave.You are going to sacrifice the one you love.How do you feel?I am dying.Help me!!

I love St Paul's.I love everything about it.I miss my friends.I miss my teachers.

What if I don't get the same love in Kedah I found here??

Sooner or later,my classmate found out.They were all shocked.

"You're leaving?No"
"Anne,why you going?Stay here la"
"Don't go la"

"Gish will have no one to debate with during Muet lessons anymore" .Pn.Sharmini said after I told her the breaking news.

Gishhhhhhh,how I miss you too!!Though you're the noisiest in the class,but I still miss debating with you.

Then,my assistant monitor saw my class teacher during recess time and told her about it.
Sam told me that Pn.Fadzalah was so sad.In my mind,I was like thanks la Sam.

I couldn't concentrate after recess time.My mind was elsewhere.My Biology teacher thought I got a headache or what.I rushed to the bathroom after that because I was going to cry.

Noooooo.This is not happening.

I love this school so much.I love everyone here.This is where I belong.How to leave the one that you love?

Then,I told my other teachers about it.And they said it was a good opportunity.I saw my debate teacher,and she was "Sedihnya,Perdana Menteri saya sudah tiada lagi".

Before I went for netball practice,Sin Yee and Zhi Xi gave me a card.Awww,I felt like I was going to break down already.

It was a sad moment.My friends in the netball team also knew bout it.It was my last netball game.That just sucks!

Other friends from other classes also knew about it.They were also shocked.I waved my last goodbye to my friends when I left the school.I looked behind to capture every single thing I could about St.Pauls.It was the place I had fallen in love with in just barely two months.

For the first time.I felt what it was like to leave something that you love very much.

A day to be remembered........

It's been a while since I spent time with Su Ee.Plus,she would be leaving to India soon to do her degree in dentistry.So,we decided to spend Thursday morning together in Jusco.We watched Step Up Revolution and I was so amazed at the dance stunts.Especially the part where Emily goes into the museum and all of a sudden the dancers come out and start dancing.My jaw dropped.That was such a brilliant idea.Maybe I should do that sometime too and give everyone a surprise!Hahahah!!After watching Step Up,I realised a few things.

I love dancing.Not because of Step Up 4.But because it's an art.I want to learn how to Salsa.But the only problem is,I need a guy.Haha!

And the thing is there are many people out there who can dance and who want to take dancing as a career.If you really love something,then it should be your career.But what if I love to dance,shouldn't I take up dancing?If I really enjoy it?

I wasn't so hungry after the movie so I was thinking about Sushi King.Apparently,Su Ee was craving for sushi just as much!So,we headed to Sushi King.Well,to be honest if it wasn't my friend who introduced me to Sushi King,I would not have tried it at all!So yeah,I thank my friend.And in this whole year,I have not been to Sushi King.So,I was also longing for it in a way too.

Luckily there were two empty seats right in front of us.So we rushed and got the two seats.But when I went there,I scanned the restaurant and I realised I was the only Indian there.Su Ee asked me to try salmon and I should have known that it was raw,so when I tried it,my taste buds immediately sent off a repulsion.I DON'T LIKE RAW FOOD!!!However,Su Ee was enjoying every bit of it!We ate a lot.Most of our dishes were the ones in red (which means it was RM5 per plate).The bill came up to RM46!!!

We talked about lots of stuff in Sushi King.Especially about a life partner and in the Christian context.It was good to hear from Su Ee's side of the story too.And then she told me about the 4 types of personality and I was blank.I only knew about the DISC test.This personality is different from the DISC one.

http://www.bethjones.net/articles/the-4-types-of-personality/

Then,we walked around and there were so many new shops!It must have been a while since I went to Jusco.We found a bench nearby and started talking about stuff.Basically,about friends and that sort of thing.

It was a good day.I enjoyed my time with Su Ee.Man,I'm gonna miss her!!!!!