I can feel the pressure of the HT KAB 2015!It was a year ago that I was a only an ajk.But now,I was heading the decorations for the stage!I don't believe it.Time flies so fast.And if it was last year that I applied for the mmk,this year I would not be.
I still remember how I felt about an MMK. It never occured to me that I would have less sleep in a day,stressed,feeling out of place.But I don't have that feelings anymore.I want to be a normal student back.I remember Pui Lan telling me that being an mmk was going to be so stressful.I don't remember chatting or being close to any of my seniors.I just applied.I think the reason I got the post was because it has been years since an Indian applied for an MMK post.
I am glad that I don't have any partner also.I am glad that I was able to make any decisions without consulting another person.The next batch would be different though,very different.I can imagine myself just watching the scene of the next batch going for meetings,deciding on something,getting to know one another.I can replay the whole episode in my head because I went through all of that.Many surprising and frightening outcomes too!( People quitting their posts,a new student as the chairman,etc...)
And as for me,I can't wait to be a normal student without any post and enjoy more debate competitions and go back home more often!Oh how,I miss home.
Tuesday, 17 March 2015
Thursday, 12 March 2015
I still remember Tuesday.Camelia wanted to see me but I somehow knew that it was regarding my faith in Christ.
This is what I learnt:
1.Try to have your quiet time
2.Try reading the bible though it can be so hard to understand the hidden meanings
3.Try your best to come to church every Sunday.
4.Rely on God-you know you will be burnt out just figuring everything on your own.You need God's power to help you go through.
Thank God for his ever-loving trait that helps you go through the day!
This is what I learnt:
1.Try to have your quiet time
2.Try reading the bible though it can be so hard to understand the hidden meanings
3.Try your best to come to church every Sunday.
4.Rely on God-you know you will be burnt out just figuring everything on your own.You need God's power to help you go through.
Thank God for his ever-loving trait that helps you go through the day!
Friday, 6 March 2015
TGIF
It's Fridayyyyyyy!Yeah man,plus no debate class.I wonder how many times Mr Sasi would be cancelling the class.So anyway,I was so positive that I was going to get the money for the activity that would be held on Sunday.
I remember crying today.I remember the responds from the office-how sarcastic they were.At 3 when I went again to the office,there was a solution-Encik Raizol gave his RM400 and I used my own RM200.Tadaaa!Program settled.So we went to the town of Tanjung Malim and bought all the items!Yayaaaaaaa!Finally
And at night,I went for youth fellowship!It was a pot bless.What I remember the most was the awesome fellowship and just talking to Camellia.She said she must see me next week for a lunch reunion kinda thing.Something surprising-SHE APPLIED FOR ISEP!Oh Wow.That is just so deep man.There were so many things playing on my head-What about Grace Youth Fellowship?What about the youths?Am I able to commit for church in sem5?
I remember crying today.I remember the responds from the office-how sarcastic they were.At 3 when I went again to the office,there was a solution-Encik Raizol gave his RM400 and I used my own RM200.Tadaaa!Program settled.So we went to the town of Tanjung Malim and bought all the items!Yayaaaaaaa!Finally
And at night,I went for youth fellowship!It was a pot bless.What I remember the most was the awesome fellowship and just talking to Camellia.She said she must see me next week for a lunch reunion kinda thing.Something surprising-SHE APPLIED FOR ISEP!Oh Wow.That is just so deep man.There were so many things playing on my head-What about Grace Youth Fellowship?What about the youths?Am I able to commit for church in sem5?
Thursday, 5 March 2015
Broken
And today,was the worst of all.I can actually feel my body breaking,the stress,the pressure.Have I done my best?The programme will be on SUNDAY!I can't help but to feel rejected at some points in life,I can't help but to feel how bad a leader I am.Maybe being follower is easy.I chose the harder path.
Oh Lord,heal my broken heart and bind up my wounds.I seem completely normal outside,I have to be normal to everyone and it breaks my heart God,that deep inside I am completely bruised.Maybe I shouldn't be such a hero sometimes.
Oh lord,just heal me.
Oh Lord,heal my broken heart and bind up my wounds.I seem completely normal outside,I have to be normal to everyone and it breaks my heart God,that deep inside I am completely bruised.Maybe I shouldn't be such a hero sometimes.
Oh lord,just heal me.
Wednesday, 4 March 2015
It's time I start on a everyday journal kinda thing to keep my memories alive whenever I read my journal!
This whole week seemed a bit hectic.Probably because my programme is on Sunday and they are still unfinished workload that the committee members are still working on.Class was cancelled today so yeah I went to the clinic to get my cough medicine and only when I was about to reach the bus station,I remembered my fungal infection on my face!Oh man,that was kinda disappointing.
I met Maddie on the bus and we talked all the way from the new campus to the old campus.She told me that she and the rest would be heading to Langkawi this weekend.They will leave on Thursday night.Kinda missing them though,it's been a week since I last met them.I kinda miss the private kinda getaway from the rest of the students.International students had a block to themselves!Only the first floor is filled with students.The rest of the floors are just vacant.It's creepy sometimes but oh well,I think they are already used to it.
My mind was buzzing with a lot of racial issues.Like,why are there so many cliques of the same race in this university?It's probably the language barrier and of course the different cultural circumstances.Sad sometimes.Even I have to admit that sometimes I prefer hanging out with Indians than Chinese and Malays just because everybody was doing so.It's really kinda annoying sometimes.
This whole week seemed a bit hectic.Probably because my programme is on Sunday and they are still unfinished workload that the committee members are still working on.Class was cancelled today so yeah I went to the clinic to get my cough medicine and only when I was about to reach the bus station,I remembered my fungal infection on my face!Oh man,that was kinda disappointing.
I met Maddie on the bus and we talked all the way from the new campus to the old campus.She told me that she and the rest would be heading to Langkawi this weekend.They will leave on Thursday night.Kinda missing them though,it's been a week since I last met them.I kinda miss the private kinda getaway from the rest of the students.International students had a block to themselves!Only the first floor is filled with students.The rest of the floors are just vacant.It's creepy sometimes but oh well,I think they are already used to it.
My mind was buzzing with a lot of racial issues.Like,why are there so many cliques of the same race in this university?It's probably the language barrier and of course the different cultural circumstances.Sad sometimes.Even I have to admit that sometimes I prefer hanging out with Indians than Chinese and Malays just because everybody was doing so.It's really kinda annoying sometimes.
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