The best friend.

I don't know how I could be able to remember what aunty Christine told me last night.I remember feeling tipsy after drinking 3 glasses of beer,my first time ever trying beer.

Anyway what she told me left me quite perturbed.She told how she and uncle Daniel were best friends for 5 years,and he is still her best friend.Of course,she added that there were things about him that is still annoying to her.There were things that Sarah didn't about her,unlike uncle Daniel.

She told how they were best friends and during that 5 years,she knew the friendship was something more than just best friends.So,she broke the relationship.When she broke the relationship,he sent her flowers,and chocolates and everything nice,Even when she broke up with him,she was still jealous that other guys managed to weave their way to uncle Daniel.She knew at that time,that she really liked him too.

They have been married for 25 years now,and he is still her best friend.She told me that for each individual,their paths of meeting varies.I agreed.There were some who fell in love at first sight,they were some who became best friends first(like hers),and there were others who fell in love through arranged marriages.

"It comes in the least expected moment.Don't search for it,you would never find it.It would come unexpectedly."

Many times,I wanted to get a picture of the guy I would marry someday.That was so impossible,I am just desperate,you know it.

And for now,I am just going to not think about finding a guy,I am probably still incapable of that.

Keep calm,follow the flow

I've learnt something new-Just keep calm.Sometimes it is best to keep quiet than to simply spurt out whatever that comes to your mind.

Remembering you

In this past few days of trying to remember the incidents that happened,replaying it all the time.I also think it's because of your bizarre personality that always kept me wondering-Who were you actually?

Some of the things that I could remember vividly in my head were how we started to make fun of each other.I remember the things you inviting me with a bunch of Malay boys who were going for a swim.That was just weird.I remember your face best of all,how your eyes were your best features-how lazy they were,how you had a very mischievous face-especially your sly smile that could make any girl fall for it.Yes,I was one of them.

The worst of it all was the syrup,I remember making it too thick without any sugar and you drank it!OMG,that was totally not cool!

I thought I heard people say that you were very naive.But through numerous observations,I knew that you were much more matured that what people think of you.You were 23,2 years older than me.Never that I thought that you were older.

I remember feeling awkward around you and that was why I started avoiding you,but then you said hi.And then you wished me good luck before I gave my speech.And then I could see you from the corner of my eye,watching me so intently I was even more scared than normal to talk!

And then,on the first day of class I was hoping to see you and you appeared!Oh gosh,I remember catching your gaze,I wished I could look left all the way but that would be weird.So I turned right and there you were,staring at me!I felt the numbness in my body,how my heart was racing,and when I waved at you,you looked straight into my eye,I remember catching your gaze until Hasma came and so I waved at him too.And then,I think we both felt awkward so you decided to joke around which I knew wasn't as natural as the previous jokes you said earlier.

Help!

Somehow,these past few days have been uncomfortable for me.Stalking and staring at you.I wonder whether you even noticed.Observing you become kind of a habit for me already,and I really would like to break this habit.It ain't cool and I am just feeling desperate,maybe.Desperate for a guy.It sucks you know,when you are just finding and searching and suddenly this guy appears.

Well,technically he didn't appear.I just happened to NOT notice him before this.But I guess the perimeter become smaller,and I found myself always near him.Eventually,I started to like him.

I have got no idea on what to do right now,but I do hope that these feelings would eventually fade off.